10th November 1984 (Saturday)

Paul T. did come and see me at work this morning.  I'm pretty sure he really likes me because he rang up this afternoon asking me to go to the Ridgehaven bush dance with him.  I didn't really want to go with him, just the two of us on our own.  I like him, but no more than a friend.  He's not very good looking, he wears glasses and he's a bit of a dag.  Mum said I couldn't go (the first time I've been glad of that!).

I saw Paul O'L. at mass in town tonight.  I had a few words with him but I'm sure he's getting sick of me hanging around.  He's very polite and stays to talk to me but I can see in his eyes that I annoy him.

I rang Karina after Paul T. rang me.  I had to tell someone.  I started to cry after he rang me.  I like two guys.  One is not the slightest bit interested in me, the other one is (as far as I know) and now I've got another guy who likes me that I'm not the slightest bit interested in.  Who wouldn't cry with that confusion?  Anyway I rang Karina for some comforting words.

She didn't see Brad today.  She said they've gone away for the weekend.  I'm beginning to think he'll never ring, and I'm seriously starting to doubt he's even interested in me.  At the moment Brad is coming out on top.  I can't wait to see him again.  He is so nice.  He's got a great sense of humour, which I love.

The guys I like never like me, and the ones that do like me I don't particularly want to get involved with.  That's the story of my life.  If Brad likes me it will be the first time someone likes me who I like as well.

Melissa and I were sun baking on the trampoline in our togs today.  My back got terribly burnt.  It was very hot today.

Yoko and Paul O'L. are confusing me.  Yoko says she only likes Paul as a friend.  (If she has an Australian boyfriend she will be sent back to Japan).  But I think they're much closer than anyone knows about.  They were holding hands last night and I was almost burning up with jealousy.  If they like each other why don't they admit it instead of denying it.

Karina said she might ring me tomorrow.  I hope she does.  I want to see if she thinks I should ring Brad.

(Anyone who can follow today's entry is a genius.  I've never been able to put things in order.)