Today is Valentine's Day and I didn't get any cards. Not that I thought I would. I just hoped I would.
Today Karina and I wrote out the ribbons for the swimming carnival which was supposed to be tomorrow. But because of the power strikes it was postponed. My stars lately have said my popularity is increasing and think they may have be right for once. I am becoming slightly more popular. I hope it helps for school captain.
Today we decided what we're doing for the concert at the Grade 12 camp. Perfect Match! It should be great fun.
We had Aunty Kaye's birthday party tonight for Saturday.
Friday, February 26, 2010
13th February 1985 (Wednesday)
Joanne wrote a letter to Eric last night so she put it in with mine and posted it this afternoon.
I played tennis for sport today and Karina & I won against two other girls 6 - 3. I haven't won for ages and I love winning!
After sport, Geoff Mulroney, our house captain (and a real cutie), asked Karina and me to help paint signs for our house. I love doing things like that because it really makes me feel like a "Grade 12".
When I got on the bus after tennis, Mathew Winten said, "Tara! Tara! Where are you?" and I said, "Down here," and he said, "Oh, that's OK. I just wanted to make sure you were on the bus." Talk about shame! It was a big bus too and he wasn't exactly whispering. Karina got upset though because he looked for me and not her.
There are power disputes on at the moment and they're so annoying. It's been like this for about 3 days. Power on & off. You can't do anything!
I played tennis for sport today and Karina & I won against two other girls 6 - 3. I haven't won for ages and I love winning!
After sport, Geoff Mulroney, our house captain (and a real cutie), asked Karina and me to help paint signs for our house. I love doing things like that because it really makes me feel like a "Grade 12".
When I got on the bus after tennis, Mathew Winten said, "Tara! Tara! Where are you?" and I said, "Down here," and he said, "Oh, that's OK. I just wanted to make sure you were on the bus." Talk about shame! It was a big bus too and he wasn't exactly whispering. Karina got upset though because he looked for me and not her.
There are power disputes on at the moment and they're so annoying. It's been like this for about 3 days. Power on & off. You can't do anything!
12th February 1985 ( Tuesday)
I showed my friends my letter from Eric today and Karina and I wrote a letter to Paul asking him why he hasn't written to Karina. It's an A-Z reasons similar to the one I sent Peter.
I did exercises tonight. I've been doing them since Sunday night and I'm sore all over!
I did exercises tonight. I've been doing them since Sunday night and I'm sore all over!
Thursday, February 11, 2010
11th February 1985 (Monday)
I got a letter from Eric today. All I need is one from Ann tomorrow and I'll have 3 letters in 3 days. Eric's letter was hilarious as usual but he talked mostly about Joanne which makes me think he's using me to get at her. But he said something very nice & thoughful. He told me I deserved better than Brad.
I taught John piano again today. I think he's doing quite well at the stage.
Karina & I made up the duty rosters for the Grade 12 camp today. There's 2 girls and 2 boys in every group so we put Nic & Mathew in our group.
I am so glad I found out about Yoko & Paul on a Friday because it gave me the whole weekend to cool down. I'm still talking to her. Even more than before I knew. She's too nice & too good of a friend to just let go like that. Anyway I think my feelings were probably jealousy as well as hurt but I always overcome jealousy, like now. I'm glad I'm still talking to her. And I'm really glad I had the weekend or I might have done or said something I really regretted.
I taught John piano again today. I think he's doing quite well at the stage.
Karina & I made up the duty rosters for the Grade 12 camp today. There's 2 girls and 2 boys in every group so we put Nic & Mathew in our group.
I am so glad I found out about Yoko & Paul on a Friday because it gave me the whole weekend to cool down. I'm still talking to her. Even more than before I knew. She's too nice & too good of a friend to just let go like that. Anyway I think my feelings were probably jealousy as well as hurt but I always overcome jealousy, like now. I'm glad I'm still talking to her. And I'm really glad I had the weekend or I might have done or said something I really regretted.
10th February 1985 (Sunday)
Today I did absolutely nothing even the slightest bit interesting. I did a bit of sun baking but I got no browner!
Mum rang Paul Street's mum tonight to ask if Paul would be my partner and they'll ring back soon about the answer. I really hope he can do it!
Mum rang Paul Street's mum tonight to ask if Paul would be my partner and they'll ring back soon about the answer. I really hope he can do it!
9th February 1985 (Saturday)
Work was nothing out of the ordinary this morning.
Mum & Dad went to a meeting at about 1.30 and then Karina rang me at 2:00. We're getting on so well lately. It seems like we're twins because we always know what the other one's going to say and we really are alike personality wise. But most importantly, we have EXACTLY the same taste in guys. There isn't one guy I like that Karina doesn't like & vice versa. That even includes past crushes before we even knew each other well. Since I've found out about Yoko & Paul Karina's the only one I can really talk to about it. She really understands. By the time we finished talking it was 4:45. We talked for 2 3/4 hours. That's a new record for me! I told Karina about my diary. Lately there's not much I haven't told her. Even things I don't dare tell anyone usually. I felt really good after I got off the phone. Really happy for a change. But then I had to ruin it by going out. We went to Mass at Ridgehaven then to a bush dance there as well. I only had three dances. I was bored out of my brain! Matt was there and so I wanted to dance with him because he was the only guy I knew there. He asked me for a dance then told me he'd get me up again later. But he went home without asking me. I felt dumb because I really thought he liked me but I'm dumb! I wish I could just kill my curiosity and not go out any more because I'm upset after EVERY time I got out. I didn't know whether to go tonight or not but of course I went and wished I didn't.
I cut Mum's hair today. All over! I didn't think she'd be brave enough to let me do that!
Mum & Dad went to a meeting at about 1.30 and then Karina rang me at 2:00. We're getting on so well lately. It seems like we're twins because we always know what the other one's going to say and we really are alike personality wise. But most importantly, we have EXACTLY the same taste in guys. There isn't one guy I like that Karina doesn't like & vice versa. That even includes past crushes before we even knew each other well. Since I've found out about Yoko & Paul Karina's the only one I can really talk to about it. She really understands. By the time we finished talking it was 4:45. We talked for 2 3/4 hours. That's a new record for me! I told Karina about my diary. Lately there's not much I haven't told her. Even things I don't dare tell anyone usually. I felt really good after I got off the phone. Really happy for a change. But then I had to ruin it by going out. We went to Mass at Ridgehaven then to a bush dance there as well. I only had three dances. I was bored out of my brain! Matt was there and so I wanted to dance with him because he was the only guy I knew there. He asked me for a dance then told me he'd get me up again later. But he went home without asking me. I felt dumb because I really thought he liked me but I'm dumb! I wish I could just kill my curiosity and not go out any more because I'm upset after EVERY time I got out. I didn't know whether to go tonight or not but of course I went and wished I didn't.
I cut Mum's hair today. All over! I didn't think she'd be brave enough to let me do that!
Wednesday, February 10, 2010
8th February 1985 (Friday)
The weekend at last!! I've only been back at school for one week and one day but it seems like months.
Today has to be ONE of the worst days of my life. I've never felt so let down or neglected ever. Roselise was telling me about a tape Paul O'L had done for Yoko before he left. She said, "Some of the things Paul said were very personal and it sounded like they are in love." I felt bad after that because Yoko didn't let me listen to the tape. But that was nothing compared to what else happened. I told Karina what Roselise had told me and I could see she knew something I didn't know. I asked her what it was but she said Yoko had a deep discussion with her when she stayed at Karina's place but she couldn't tell me what Yoko said. But I could tell she told her Paul and herself were much, much more than good friends. And Karina gave me enough hints to tell me I was right. I was so angry! Firstly because Yoko had told Roselise & Karina but not me (her supposedly best friend). But I was extremely upset at the fact she'd been lying to me all this time. And not just small, "stretching-the-truth" lies but downright lies to the worst extreme. She must think a lot of me! What did she think I'd do? Commit suicide or something. I'm not that weak that I can't handle it. I hate Yoko so much today. I couldn't even look at her after I found out. If there's one thing I can't handle, it's being lied to. I crack up. I feel like absolutely nothing & nobody when people lie to me. And to think, Yoko's just been making me look like a total fool. I've been telling her how much I like Paul and she kept saying, "I don't know how you could like him that way." The BITCH! Why couldn't she tell me the truth? She also asked Karina if I was using her to get at Paul. I wasn't! But now she can think what she likes. I really did like her but she's not really the person I liked now I've found out the truth about her. She's a totally different person. And if all this isn't bad enough! To make my day worse I come home to find a letter from Paul on the kitchen table. I've never felt so dumb. Yoko probably told Paul everything I told her. And, believe me, I told her everything. I almost felt like tearing the letter up. I'd told Karina I wasn't going to write to him anymore & I hoped he wouldn't write back. The letter started just fine when he spelt my name with a small 't' (which is exactly what Will did and he hated me). The letter was a letter that a brother would send. It was so bad I could even show Mum & Dad. I can't even show Eric's letter to them! Then, to make me feel even worse, he ended with "Yours sincerely"! I couldn't believe it. He didn't even put 'Your friend' or anything. It was the most impersonal closing he could get!! I don't' want to write to him anymore but Mum would ask me why I wasn't, so I guess I'll have to! I've never felt so unimportant before. I'm really depressed. I cried this afternoon & I feel like slapping Yoko across the face. The LYING DOG!
Today has to be ONE of the worst days of my life. I've never felt so let down or neglected ever. Roselise was telling me about a tape Paul O'L had done for Yoko before he left. She said, "Some of the things Paul said were very personal and it sounded like they are in love." I felt bad after that because Yoko didn't let me listen to the tape. But that was nothing compared to what else happened. I told Karina what Roselise had told me and I could see she knew something I didn't know. I asked her what it was but she said Yoko had a deep discussion with her when she stayed at Karina's place but she couldn't tell me what Yoko said. But I could tell she told her Paul and herself were much, much more than good friends. And Karina gave me enough hints to tell me I was right. I was so angry! Firstly because Yoko had told Roselise & Karina but not me (her supposedly best friend). But I was extremely upset at the fact she'd been lying to me all this time. And not just small, "stretching-the-truth" lies but downright lies to the worst extreme. She must think a lot of me! What did she think I'd do? Commit suicide or something. I'm not that weak that I can't handle it. I hate Yoko so much today. I couldn't even look at her after I found out. If there's one thing I can't handle, it's being lied to. I crack up. I feel like absolutely nothing & nobody when people lie to me. And to think, Yoko's just been making me look like a total fool. I've been telling her how much I like Paul and she kept saying, "I don't know how you could like him that way." The BITCH! Why couldn't she tell me the truth? She also asked Karina if I was using her to get at Paul. I wasn't! But now she can think what she likes. I really did like her but she's not really the person I liked now I've found out the truth about her. She's a totally different person. And if all this isn't bad enough! To make my day worse I come home to find a letter from Paul on the kitchen table. I've never felt so dumb. Yoko probably told Paul everything I told her. And, believe me, I told her everything. I almost felt like tearing the letter up. I'd told Karina I wasn't going to write to him anymore & I hoped he wouldn't write back. The letter started just fine when he spelt my name with a small 't' (which is exactly what Will did and he hated me). The letter was a letter that a brother would send. It was so bad I could even show Mum & Dad. I can't even show Eric's letter to them! Then, to make me feel even worse, he ended with "Yours sincerely"! I couldn't believe it. He didn't even put 'Your friend' or anything. It was the most impersonal closing he could get!! I don't' want to write to him anymore but Mum would ask me why I wasn't, so I guess I'll have to! I've never felt so unimportant before. I'm really depressed. I cried this afternoon & I feel like slapping Yoko across the face. The LYING DOG!
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